Liberation Through Sexual Embodiment
Be passionate. Be patient. Be curious.
Be passionate. Be patient. Be curious.
BY BRIANNA BROWN, A VOICE FROM THE FC COLLECTIVE
Brianna Brown is a sensual embodiment mentor who is deeply passionate about dismantling the patriarchy and liberating the wild feminine. She has spent years studying and exploring the depths of somatic, spiritual, and mental wellness and has supported humans all over the globe in doing the same.
Embodied sexuality is more than embracing your sex drive, having mind blowing orgasms, or being in a perpetual state of Seductress.
Did you know you can access
Empowerment
Liberation
Self worth
Self trust
Enhanced intuition
Clarity
AND
Levity
…all by embracing yourself as a sexual being and exploring this part of you?
I spent my entire adulthood deeply believing I was a sexually liberated woman with extensive self-awareness. I felt woke, self-actualized, and embodied in my wisdom. I really thought I had it all figured out.
Turns out, I really didn’t.
The thing I didn’t yet understand is that we carry so much unresolved trauma, fear, anxiety, and doubt in our bodies.
And for us women, we tend to carry it in our womb space.
Your womb space is one of your greatest allies as a woman. She does so much for you. She fosters creation, pleasure, connection, confidence, desire, and so much more.
She also protects you. That which your mind struggles to process or experience will often be held onto by your precious womb to protect your emotional state. Rather than falling into emotional depletion or a mental health crisis, your womb will take it on.
As your womb holds more and more doubt, fear, trauma, and limiting beliefs, your sacred experience as a feminine being pays a price. Your sexual wellness and sensual existence begins to decline, and you start to feel like you’re existing instead of truly living.
So, how do you know if this is the case for you?
So many women live with sexual and sensual dissonance secondary to unresolved trauma being held in their bodies. This may be true for you if you experience pain during sex, low sex drive, guilt or shame around your sexuality, difficulty reaching orgasm, shame or blocks around receiving pleasure, dissociation during sex, falling into people-pleasing and having sex even when you don’t actually want to, feeling like your body is designed for others’ pleasure, body shame and/or dysmorphia, etc.
A few years ago, I was struggling with imposter syndrome, doubting my ability to be a leader, and fearing the prospect of romantic love. It felt debilitating. I was working with a spiritual mentor at the time and she assigned me the task of a 14 day womb space healing.
I sort of scoffed at it, at first. I felt like I knew my womb very well, like she and I were super connected, ya know?
Holy smokes, I was wrong.
I had no idea how much emotion my body was holding onto and how extensively my overall wellness was impacted by unresolved trauma. It was holding onto trauma I hadn’t even thought of in years. It ran deep and consisted of memories I didn’t even realize really impacted me.
My womb healing journey quickly opened my eyes to how much my womb was carrying:
Fear
Anxiety
Past traumas (big T AND little t)
Absent father wounds
Relationship wounds
Imposter syndrome
Comparison
Sisterhood wounds
Body shame
Slut shame
And so much more.
My sweet, beautiful womb was holding onto so much for me.
Things I thought I had intellectualized my way through.
And I had no idea.
You can only intellectualize yourself so far on the healing journey. Eventually, you simply must incorporate the body.
This womb healing journey eventually began to evolve into a sacred yoni dearmoring practice. I realized I was really never attentive to my yoni (“yoni” is the Sanskrit word for the vulva and vagina meaning “sacred passageway”). In fact, I was a bit ashamed of her, which I now realized was just a conditioned pattern I was indoctrinated into, as most women in patriarchal societies are.
I had a tendency to avoid touching my yoni too much. If I embraced self-pleasure, it was as quick as possible and typically with a showerhead or a vibrator. I never took my time.
Yoni dearmoring shifted my relationship with my pleasure and with my vulva. I began to explore her more. And, through yoni dearmoring and this exploration, I released heaps of stuck and stagnant energy held there. In doing so, I was creating more energetic space for receiving (physically and energetically).
And then things started getting wild. My entire sex life shifted with this practice.
Deep penetration had always caused immense pain for me, yet with this new energetic space I created, I was not only experiencing wild pleasure from deep penetration, but also cervical orgasms!
This was a huge deal for me and I was completely fascinated by what my body was capable of.
Sexual exploration became a ritualistic, spritual practice for me.
I healed wounds around receiving, around worth, around my body, and I stepped more and
more into this version of myself that I didn’t even know existed.
I swear, it felt like I woke up one day and was like, “Holy shit. I’m amazing and worthy of
everything I desire.”
Having struggled with low self worth and really noisy body image challenges my entire life, I truly didn’t think it was possible to feel this way.
I felt worthy of pleasure, of love, of joy, and of space to just BE.
My pleasure practices took on an entirely new meaning in my life. It was no longer about getting after a quick and efficient orgasm. Instead, it became this sacred ritual where I got to explore my entire body and whatever it was she was desiring that day. I learned to take my time. To be curious. To be sensual. To be present.
I released shame around the appearance of my yoni, around her scent, her fluids. I shifted my perspective and saw her for the beautiful portal she truly is.
This newfound pleasure and worthiness radiated into every aspect of my life.
Less fear. Less over-analyzing. Less rushing. Less distraction. Less anxiety.
More space. More presence. More trust. More feeling. More being. More joy.
I was learning to trust my body and to trust the Universe, simultaneously (turns out, they dance beautifully together).
I had never felt as aligned to my truth as I now do since starting this journey of sexual and sensual embodiment.
Do I still have moments or even days where I fall into old patterns of body dysmorphic tendencies or questioning my worth? Chyeah, I do. I’m a human.
The thing is that now I don’t get stuck there. Now I see the way I have quite literally been conditioned by the patriarchy to question and doubt and criticize absolutely everything about myself. And I have the tools to move through these moments from an empowered and embodied perspective.
Let this be an invitation into your own sexual and sensual exploration and liberation. And as you lean in, remember:
Be compassionate with yourself.
Be patient with yourself.
And be curious about it all.
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